The support The wall

What r friends for...friends are  for us to support in the time of fall. They are the ones who just knws when u dull or upset. Friend Wil ask u out of blue if u doing fine. They are also the same ppl who Wil help u find ur self.

Friends are simple ppl who wil take care of u Wil help u rise Wil help u move frwd. They do knw ur crazy family although they don't belong to it. They are the ones who knows ur friends the real ones and the others

Friend Wil also kick your ass in literal and hypothetical ways. They not think twice before they give a reality chk and also they will b thr a gazillion times to let u cry. 

They hold u when u cry. They listen when u get angry.  They laugh at you when u talk stupid.  They help u fight ur battle. 

Friends make fun of u n insult u in the most inappropriate ways but still they Wil look out for u in til the highest points of sky.

Iam happy that I have such ppl in life Iam glad and thankful for them to b wid me. I lv u from moon n bak. 

Emotional ramble

Iam angry Iam upset Iam disappointed not with or coz or sumone it's coz of myself...I feel incapable of expressing my anger towards others. I feel so angry when ppl I love hurt me...it pains my heart when they knw it hurt me but stil don't do anything about it...it makes my heart ache when they igonr my desire to talk out...

How can they tel me they knw me that they love me that they care about me when they can't judge between my geniune smile and a fake one...

Why in first place do I have to give that fake smile to the ppl I love...why can't I just have a clear head...I blame myself for not getting things clear...it feels like Iam cheating them by not showing rite emotions.. But it's Soo hard to do that...it's so hard to pour my heart out to someone...it's the fear of being misunderstood the fear of hurting them without the intention is paining me so much...its making me Soo emotional al the time i just feel like crying when evr Iam alone

I don't want to be with ppl with anyone but the loneliness is not the best thing I feel. I am feeling like strangling sumthng. But I don't knw or understand y iam feeling this way. I mean Iam happy but again I knw Iam missing on something but Iam unable to pin point...my life is so stagnant from I don't when I want to do something about it but Idk what to do its just frustrating me even more...

Even tiny things r tricking me...bloody workout would make me happy but now how much ever I workout its not helping...meeting friends is out of question..it's frustrating me how my best friends who I did so much for is just not the same...I know I shouldn't b taking it in wrong way but it's annoying nevertheless...

I thought about getting myself busy in some work but again let's face it Iam too lazy to strt working again or even down the line I think Iam scrd about it...Idk what it is n that's so annoying...

I think Iam thinking too much into in n I should ask my brain to shut the fuck up but it just doesn't.

I don't knw why Iam publishn this here...but Iam convincing myself saying I'll read this in years to come n laugh so for the sake of that laugh...to my future self *congrats you have better worries now*

Beyond oneself

Jaane anjane mei yeh kya hogaya 

Maine kabhi nahi chaha par yeh hogaya 

Maine na socha tha 

Maine kabhi na socha...

sochne ki zarurat padegi tujhe chane ke leye 

Jaane anjane mei yeh hogaya..

Duriya badi 

Badi yeh bechaini

Pata nahi Kab bad gayi yeh anjaani 

Maine kabhi na chaha 

Na chaha bade yeh naadani 

Jo shuru huvi bas narazgi se

Pata nahi Kab ban gayi anjaani....

Tu bhi jane...janu mei bhi...

Tu bhi jane...janu mei bhi...

Jo tu chahe

Chahu mei bhi...

Yeh narazgi badgayi ab itne

Aab jane nahi Kab hogi yeh bechaini dur

Na jane yeh narazgi yeh bechaini hogi ke bhi nahi dur

Bas itne dua hai Khuda se rakhe tujhe woh khair se

Bas itne dua hai Khuda se rakhe yeh betabi dur humare daman se...

Life

The birds fly 

The birds fly high 

The birds fly into the sky 

The birds touch the shining light 

The bird is caught 

The bird is cagged

The bird is left 

The bird is left with wings but still tries 

The bird dreams 

The bird dreams about the sky 

The bird wishes to touch the shinning light 

The bird tires to fly...still in cage n craves for the sky 

It may b a high fly 

It may take all the might 

But the bird may fly 

Before it drops the might 

It may fly before the drop of the night 

It may fly before the rise of the dawn

It may fly so high...either with might or its life....

Sometimes

Sometimes I lie...sometimes I lie just to escape the truth....sometimes I lie...coz I don't wana face the truth 

Sometimes things get to real to be good 

Things in the dream land r way better than present 

I assume if I live in dream they may come true 

I wish they come true 

Not that wishes dreams doesn't come true....they do but the thirst for it to b true get rather down 

When I crave a thing...n get it is more precious....however I am thankful for all I have...

Although it gets difficult at times I like it the way I portrait it....

It may seem rather it is I have been away from bad by the grace of God but I still feel everyone faces bad in his own way 

Iam almost asleep...coz the daily routine is on the line but I wonder how long can life dragged...

Ppl tell me u need a change...i wish I knew what is this change that everyone seem to run behind...

It's past midnight n my brain says go to sleep u have clock to manage 

I still try to catch up the time and still hope the thirst of this want doesn't die way sooner than time..